“No one can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other.” Matthew 6:24a
Lord,
Help me refine my focus. Remind me to keep my eyes on what I need to do now, not what I want in the future. Though it may be hard, let me overlook all my distractions, and look toward the prize, Your plan. Your gift. Your love.
” Cause I am just a beggar here at Your door
I am just a shipwreck here on Your shore
I come empty handed
Ready to see
Your life in me changing who I’ve been
To who I need to be”
I think I found out who I need to be.
After 2 weeks of writing, I’m finally done.
But what did I write, you ask? It will reveal itself in its own time.
A little quickie, and I will expand later.
but
Chapter 15. “I Kissed Dating Goodbye” By Joshua Harris. Probably the most mind opening piece of Christian Literature I have read.
—Joshua Harris, “I Kissed Dating Goodbye”
I wont give up.
There’s a huge obstacle before me. The odds are stacked against me. All logic and common sense dictates that it is a stupid idea. The world disapproves it. The mere thought of it is intimidating. The noise from everything else is distracting.
Knees trembling. Pupils dilating. Heart beat racing. Breaths become harder. Mouth dries. Muscles tighten.
Mind is overwhelmed. Senses go awry. Words are jumbled. Nothing comes out. Fear sets in. Rejection. Inadequacy. Losing Confidence….
Words appear.
I can do everything through him who gives me strength. - Philippians 4:13
Mind settles down. Calmness arises. Thoughts clear out. Words become clearer. Fear remains, but bravery overcomes. Feeling of confidence flowing.
Body relaxes. Eyes focus. Deep breathes. Hands steadies. Strength runs through them.
A bigger prize lays behind the obstacle. Greater than the challenge itself. The world’s noise becomes sedated. Everyone’s voice is quieter. All except for three. God’s. Mine. Yours.
I won’t give up.
because.
God knows we’re worth it.
I won’t give up. for you, and for You.
For me, 2011 had one constants, something that always happened without fail.
It wasn’t the friends around me, who changed from time to time. Whether it was due to my reasons or their own, not a lot stuck around.
It wasn’t the strength of my relationship with God, which was up and down a lot this year.
It wasn’t the places I’ve seen, cause I’ve traveled more this year than any year. On my own money, mind you.
It wasn’t the person that I liked, cause that obviously changed. From the girls before to the girl now, all I do is pray for her.
That one constant. That happened every single time.
Going to markham station with my boys. AND NEVER MAKING IT IN TIME FOR THE SPECIAL.
thats my 2011
Aside from all the business of the holidays, for the fact I haven’t wrote anything for 3 weeks. This is just gonna be a small post
But.
I’m not sure, if it is a sign from God, or a really big coincedence.
And no matter what it is, I will trust God on this one, and follow the path He chose for me.
And so far. I like this path.
